Ignorance is bliss

Rant of the night!

My life is just going dowhill from here… Im so unhappy with the piss poor decisions I have been making w. My life.. Things are really starting off badly this year let me just say that. For one all over a man.. But I wouldnt even call you a man, boy fits it a little better. Let me start by saying you lost something really amazing. You will never find a girl like me expecially that will put up with the constant lies, the abuse, the name calling… I could go on for days. Now when I finally get tje balls to leave you, I find out im pregant with your baby. All we do is fight beccause your never home, and all we do is legit fuck fight and sleep. You say how you will be the best dad and how things will change now that ive got a bun in the oven but that lasted all of three days…. You cant make me happy or spend time with me, why in the world would I think you will be there for your kid. Im scared I havr nothing without you. You are all I have in this world, I have no family little to no friends that are close enough to really understand how tough my life is without even being put in the situation… I am so scared. I want us to both change and be there for the baby and be happy with eachother is that to much to ask for??!? I love you but grow up and get your head straifht stop blaming me.for everything and most important be there for me! This break I hope will make us learn from our mistakes because im.sick of doing this shit, if this doesnt work im giving up. But just remember you will always have a place in my heart!! :/